I drink V8 from the carton. A corner of my living room is draped in aluminum foil...still. I've been listening to Arabic Pop...and it needs to stop. I vacuum at least three times a week but I rarely take the time to make my bed. I have class in an abandoned tobacco warehouse. I'm always thinking about my next photograph. My dog has a jacket that makes her look like Marilyn Monroe on her wedding day. I have too many bad days. I want out of the US...again. I'm afraid to donate blood. I get weak just typing that. I burn far too much incense for one person. I still think having a prairie dog as a pet is pretty fucked up. I miss giving tours of the Capitol Building and riding the Senate metro. I have no plans for tomorrow. None! I'm awaiting my wealthy benefactor. I get discouraged when the art students wear normal clothes. No one takes chances anymore. I want to take a chance. I wore a diamond tiara to the horse races...but that doesn't really count. I scribble notes relentlessly, especially in the margins of poli-sci textbooks, mostly bitter and polysyllabic. I'm still unemployed, and it's pissing me off. I think I'm qualified to take mugshots at the county jail...somebody's got to do it, and I'm willing.
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
About Me
- Name: Chishiki Lauren
- Location: Philly, United States
If I told you I'd then have to kill you and sell your organs for beer money.Sapporo, to be exact.
Previous Posts
- Silly girls...
- Escalating
- You think I'm a fascist pig
- I put a gun to my roommate's head and force her to...
- My kind of day
- I am...
- I am determined to make Dre a star
- Open letter...
- Boredom pays...in small, miserly doses
- Yesterday's daily intake
Currently reading:
Team of Rivals: The Political Genius of Abraham Lincoln - Doris Kearns GoodwinThe Mandarins - Simone de Beauvoir
Fleeting faves
Now that I need you, you're going insane.Everyday, sinking in the quicksand.
Time exists just on your wrist, so don't panic.
When logic and proportion have fallen sloppy dead; And the white knight is talking backwards; And the red queen's off with her head; Remember what the dormouse said, Feed your head, feed your head.
I'll let you be in my dreams, if I can be in yours.
Blame it on the black star, blame it on the falling sky, blame it on the satellite....
...the ocean laughs this way.
Juran que el mismo cielo, se estremecia al oir su llanto, como sufria por ella...
Oh la salvadora, oh, sweet catastrophe. Ah siren song, our captain says there's nothing wrong. As I dash my ship upon your shore, a mad, drunk, and reckless troubadour. I'm outside here hollerin' at your door, begging you for more....baby ain't we a beautiful disaster...
Who was she, to feel so free?
How happy is the blameless vestal's lot! The world forgetting, by the world forgot. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd.
The sun's not yellow, it's chicken.
In a funny way, she reminds you of the fall.
Blue eyes, you're the secret I keep.
Home, places we've grown, all of us are done for.
Further along we just may, but for now it's just another lonely day.
All of the true things I am about to tell you are shameless lies.
If I told you a secret, you won't tell a soul, will you hold it and keep it alive?
"Never think that war, no matter how necessary, nor how justified, is not a crime." - Hemingway
"A country cannot simultaneously prepare and prevent war." - Einstein
"Breakfast where the news is read, television children fed, unborn living, living, dead, bullet strikes the helmet's head. And it's all over for the unknown soldier." - The Doors
"I'm fed up to the ears with old men dreaming up wars for young men to die in." - George McGovern
"Invisible transfers, long distance calls, Hollow laughter in marble halls, Steps have been taken, a silent uproar, Has unleashed the dogs of war. You can't stop what has begun, Signed, sealed, they deliver oblivion. We all have a dark side, to say the least, And dealing in death is the nature of the beast." - Pink Floyd
"Much violence is based on the illusion that life is a property to be defended and not to be shared." - Henri Nouwen
"Five enemies of peace inhabit with us--avarice, ambition, envy, anger, and pride; if these were to be banished, we should infallibly enjoy perpetual peace." - Petrarch
"You fasten the triggers, For the others to fire, Then you set back and watch, When the death count gets higher, You hide in your mansion, As young people's blood, Flows out of their bodies, And is buried in the mud." - Dylan
“Cannot we have love instead of hate, peace instead of war?…War is on its last legs; and a universal peace is as sure as is the prevalence of civilization over barbarism, of liberal governments over feudal forms. The question for us is only how soon?" - Emerson
"All men are brothers, like the seas throughout the world; So why do winds and waves clash so fiercely everywhere?" - Emperor Hirohito "One must still have chaos in oneself to be able to give birth to a dancing star." – Nietzsche
"Men are better than their theology." - Emerson
"The law will never make men free; it is men who have got to make the law free. They are the lovers of law and order, who observe the law when the government breaks it." - Thoreau
"To be nobody-but-yourself--in a world which is doing its best night and day, to make you everybody else- means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting." - e.e. cummings
"Is all that we see or seem, all but a dream within a dream?" - Poe
"But at night! Night spilled liked gasoline on my most hopeless dreams." - Leonard Cohen
"An intellectual is one whose mind watches itself." - Camus
"Perhaps the greatest sorrow is to dwell upon happiness from misery." - Dante
"All colors exist to satisfy the longing for blue." - Neruda
"I'd love to change the world, but I don't know what to do, so I'll leave it up to you." - Ten Years After
"Madness is rare in individuals - but in groups, parties, nations, and ages, it is the rule." - Nietzche
"I know nothing with any certainty, but the sight of stars makes me dream." - Van Gogh
"You killed your European son, You spit on those under twenty-one, But now your blue car’s gone, You better say so long." - Velvet Underground
"If we all did the things we are capable of doing, we would literally astound ourselves." - Thomas Edison
"Is it so bad, then, to be misunderstood? Pythagoras was misunderstood, and Socrates, and Jesus, and Luther, and Copernicus, and Galileo, and Newton, and every pure and wise spirit that ever took flesh. To be great is to be misunderstood." - Emerson
6 Comments:
I'm banned indefinitely from giving blood in the US. Seems I might be carrying the Mad Cow disease. You know, from all that beef I eat.
The ban might be a good thing, though. It's a better excuse than the fact that I passed out watching my ex give blood. Yeah, that wasn't embarrassing at all ...
I know what you mean, I ate meat and got a tattoo when I was in London. I might as well have acid running through my veins.
I took stuff for yellow fever, typhoid, and maleria for my trip to africa... they don´t want my blood either.
and i am sick enough to enjoy giving it.
I'm "sick" enough to enjoy giving it too.
lucky me, they love my blood. O+, baby, the universal donor. Or something like that. Going to Costa Rica only knocked me off their list for about a year. Now if I miss going again after my 60 days, they'll call. Never fail.
woman, you should totally come to DC. Intern again or something. My office paid, though meagerly. The tours were always weird for me, especially as I knew someone on the tour 50% of the time. Grade school boyfriend you haven't seen in seven years, hello! I am desperately in need of someone in close proximity who doesn't think photography is lame or a waste of time and money. I think about photographs all the time, too.
That said, you seem to be doing just fine with the photography in KY.
i don't give blood. it grosses me out.
(i found this via brians link on your photo, so you know, blame him.)
Your last comment about taking mug shots at the county jail reminded me of Holly Hunter's role in "Raising Arizona". "Stand to the right....stand to the left..."
If you want to get out of the States (which strikes me as an excellent idea), I would recommend that you try to get a job working in an international school. Good pay, free apartment, other benefits...everything except a decent health care package! Doh!
A good place to check out might be www. tieonline.com - they advertise jobs on a pretty regular basis.
The destruction of your car wasn't just a random act - it was a sign from upstairs to get off your butt and get out of 'Dodge'..!
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