I'm fucked up, I'm just fine. Searching for a peace of mind.

I look like my father. I never want to fit a stereotype. I wish I could organize my thoughts into a comprehensive stream. I once shoplifted on accident. I hold grudges, but hide them. I saw detailed pictures of massacred Kosovars freshman year and cried for three hours. I never know how to pronounce my own name. I’m left-handed and that makes me happy. I prefer being cold. I have to listen to “Wish You Were Here” at least once a day or I feel incomplete. My eyes change color. I once figured out my weight on each of the planets. I have dreams people murder me violently. I prefer to be cremated. I used to entertain notions of becoming an architect. I like unique traditions. I fear diamonds. I have a hygiene fetish. Celebrities annoy me. I think I’d like to own a bookstore. I’ve dyed my hair sixteen times and remember each vividly. I like feeling the tide rising. Sometimes I think I was born in the wrong era. I say “rock on” too much. I left half a leg of jeans in the Paris Orly airport. I’ve started to chew my food thirty-two times. I like to call people I don’t know Jack. I have long eyelashes. I love to wear the color brown. I say I have no regrets…but I have one. I’m good at keeping secrets. I’m uncomfortable in most social situations. I bruise easily. TV makes me nauseous. Things I don’t understand fascinate me. I am often a walking contradiction. I wish I knew what I wanted. I want to live in the US Capitol Building. I played Mary in my kindergarten Christmas pageant. I have a love/hate relationship with roller coasters. When I was eight teachers called me gifted and it gave me a complex. I can watch Kenneth Branagh’s version of Hamlet repeatedly in one night. Sometimes I wish I were a Goonie…Goonies never say die.

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